Bitches are Bitches.

I recently started a social experiment.. Here's the story:

I just got out of a loooong relationship. When you get out of a relationship like that you look aound and realize some things. One being, "Shit.. I don't have any friends left in this town." So you hop on Facebook, talk to some girls, and you get their number. That is where this story starts.

I contact a girl I knew from a couple years ago. I met her when I was working at a church. She's nice, wholesome, home schooled, cute, never drank, never smoked, loves Jesus, and I think she's had a thing for me in the past. For all intensive purposes.. She was the ultimate good girl. We talk and agree that we should get together sometime before I leave for basic. She gives me her number and like anyone else who lives in 2010, I text. We text all day and into the night. It's enjoyable and we have a lot to talk about. We decide to meet up and just say hi.. And that's exactly what we did. No big deal, it was fun, it was boring, blah blah blah. We keep this up for a few days until somehow we stumble onto the fact that she has a boyfriend. What the fuck? We talked about a lot of things that I would definitely not approve of as a boyfriend. Dateline would probably categorize what went on as "SEXTING." How do you talk to a guy for days nonstop if you have a boyfriend? And a serious boyfriend of over a year, no less.. At that point I stopped talking. I couldn't do it. It made me sick.

She texted me several times.. And after a few days I finally gave in. Not because she was worth it, but because I was curious. I wanted to know just how far she would go. I mean she is the text book wholesome girl that a lot of people are looking for. Someone you can trust and who will stay faithful. I know that's what I'm looking for in a woman. I have only a handful of goals in life and that's one of them. Is there such a person out there? You'd think that I could talk to this girl, try to "woo" her and fail miserably.. That's not the case. I ask her all the routine dirty questions and yes.. I get a lot of "no's". But she didn't turn me down for her boyfriend.. She only said no because we didn't know each other well enough yet. Her guy, that she told me she loved soooo much, had been put on the backburner for someone new. It's been weeks now. She still texts me. Who cares? The experiment is over and I got my results..

*It may not seem like much, but I left a lot of details out. I don't want to embarrass anyone more than I have to.

I don't know that there are good people left. I know I'm not a great person, but I'd like to lean on someone. I want to stand next to a woman at some point who I know makes me better. I want to love like you see in the movies. Unfortunately, I think it's all a fairytale. I didn't base this all on what I wrote above.. We all hear stories. I'm 19 now and I'm coming in contact with more and more marriages every day. None of them are ever pretty. A great percentage of people I meet are plagued by divorce. What separates me from them? Maybe it's hope.. Because although I am saying this now, I will not give up my search. What can I say? I'm a hopeless romantic.

All in all.. Bitches are bitches. Well, most of them anyways.